My Stance on Love

Love...

A simple word, only four letters long.

But it might as well be a black hole. At the same time that two people are blissful in love it's tearing another couple apart. It's so alluring because we believe there's one person out there for everyone and once you find them you just know and it's happily ever after.

But it's not that simple. People fall in and out of love, because it's not true love. True love never leaves. And even if you both really love each other, that's not the only factor in it. There's all your friends, telling you he's not right, you're better than that and you break up with him.

Or maybe there's the intervening parents. Or someone else. Or you just live on separate sides of the globe.

Fact is, there are other factors than your sweet love. And they get in the way. It's fucking hard for two people not only to fall in love, but to stay that way. And no body warns you about it. Because no one can.

But hey, don't throw your hopes out the door just because of me. It is possible to stay in love and have it overcome all obstacles. It's just more common in fairy tales than in real life by a ratio of 23457854720978450978345907834597349057947 to 1.

So good luck.

Just a Moment of Weakness

Life lately has been, interesting.

I've been connecting with a lot of new and old friends. It's interesting the people who are coming in and out of my life. It occurs to me now that I don't feel that close to anyone anymore. The image of the cheerleader who has so many friends but doesn't feel like anyone understands her and is really alone comes to mind, but I'm not quite that girl. Maybe it's just that I'm lonely today, I don't know. That might explain my recent whore attitude. I feel cheap, unworthy. I shouldn't, considering the piles of compliments I've been getting but hey, that's the human brain for you, illogical.

Meh, not a very good day. I hope someone calls me soon to cheer me up.